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Vacay in 4 days!

One of the very best things about being back in my home state, is that I’m near my friends again. I lived in Minnesota for over a year but I still never really made real friends of my own. I love being near my friends but I’m most excited because I’m near my BEST friend again! For those people who have read my blog in the past, or if you just know me, you will know that my absolute best best best friend in the whole wide fucking world is this chica riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight here ↓ (obviously the blonde one since I’m the other girl)


aaaaaand she is also an AB! We met on Diaperspace in 2008 and have been inseparable ever since! We even used to live together, twice actually. Anyways, back in July she started seeing a guy who lives in Mass. He’s really nice, and an AMAZING Daddy to her. She has been up there visiting him since the end of November, and I’m going up there on the 11th! We are going to have so much fun. We have lots of fun stuff planned like setting up the Christmas tree, making cookies for Santa, going to see Santa at the mall… We are leaving on the 21st of December but we are going to have a miniature early Christmas while we are there! Neither one of us have spent Christmas “little” so that’s what we are going to do. We have lots of other fun stuff planned too but I can’t really think of it right now! Back in October, her Daddy (Scott) came to visit her and all 3 of us got to hang out. It was super fun! He’s my Uncle Scotty Wotty and I like to mess with him. It’s fun hanging out with them, but it kinda sucks because I want to hang out with them AND a Daddy of my own. I’ve been talking to a guy, and he is my Daddy but we aren’t official yet because we have only been talking for about a month and we haven’t met in person yet. I really like him and I really like where things are going with him, though. We are supposed to meet in January. He lives in Georgia which is not that far from me, so yay! Maybe one day him and I and Brittany and Scott can all get together. ^_^

Here are some pictures of Brittany and I from October! If you are on Fetlife you may have seen these there, though.

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Newly developed Mommy feelings.

I’m an AB because it makes me feel safe. It makes me feel secure. I adore attention, and I love being doted over. When I first got involved in this lifestyle, I strictly identified as a Little Girl. I am still mainly just an AB, but things have changed a little along the way. As I grew and explored more of this fetish (and explored more of myself) I grew into a DL, as well. I used to hate seeing diapers on my partner, and then slowly that changed. Within the last  year or so my feelings have changed about being a Mommy as well. I tried to explore these feelings with my ex-boyfriend, but he completely refused.  To be honest, my ex didn’t really enjoy ageplay of any kind. So, I suppressed my budding Mommy instincts. Being newly single, I’ve gotten the chance to explore these feelings with a few pretty rad people ;) only online though, I haven’t gotten to be Mommy IRL yet. It is completely new to me and completely amazing. Everyday I get more and more into it, and that honestly surprises me. I’ve come to realize that I can get some pretty amazing feelings of affection from being Mommy. To me, when I am Mommy, I feel confident. I feel safe because I am in control. I feel strong.

I think there are a couple of reasons why I have felt such a strong interest in being Mommy. First of all, and a pretty fucking simple reason, is that my ex-boyfriend was very controlling. He liked to tell me who I could hang out with, and what I could do. I felt very suffocated with him. I think that being a Mommy is my way of feeling more in control. I am by nature a very passive person. In the last few months I’ve seen myself coming out of that and being more aggressive. I’ve become more dominant, and not just in the sexy Mommy way. It’s definitely a good thing.

Last year, I lost a baby. I actually haven’t told a lot of people about this but I’m more okay with it now, so I guess I can talk about it. Before, I never wanted kids. It’s actually a pretty common theme among people in this lifestyle; a lot of them don’t want real kids. After I got pregnant I was surprisingly extremely excited. I really wanted to be a Mom. My feelings towards life, and everything I wanted out of life, changed. When I lost the baby, I was sad for a very long time. It also didn’t help that I never talked about it. And my ex would never talk about it with me. It was a really hard thing to go through. I’ve personally seen my personality change a lot since then, though. I’ve become extremely maternal. Being a Mommy to AB’s has really helped with this.

I guess something that I love about my life right now is that I am realizing that I am evolving into a new person everyday. I’ve been into AB/DL for over 5 years now.  If you had told me that one day I would play Mommy for AB’s: I would’ve laughed at you. I guess people really DO change a lot in 5 years.

I just want to point out that even though I’ve been enjoying the Mommy side of things, I will not be your Mommy. So please don’t ask. I have a really amazing little boy (who happens to be a pretty amazing Daddy as well!) and I also have been talking to a certain cute little princess named Melly as of late. Those two pretty much keep Mommy Ally’s hands full <3

I have like tons of pictures that I haven’t posted on Fetlife, and I figure I’ll post them on my blogs. These are definitely of baby Ally though, not Momma Ally!

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Starting fresh. (kinda)

So, I haven’t blogged in a long time. Almost a year I think, maybe more. I kinda like blogging though and that’s why I always come back to it. I honestly just like to write.

One of the reasons I haven’t been blogging, is because I’ve been withdrawn from the community. As some of you know, I just went through a pretty bad break-up. I was with this guy for almost 4 years. We lived together for a year and a half. We met on ABY and at first he was  my Daddy, but then he kind of stopped doing it. That isn’t why we broke up though. He just didn’t make me happy when it came to a lot of different things. We want different things out of life. So I broke up with him back in August. I moved back to my home state, and I’ve honestly been happier then I have been in a long time. While I was living with him, he gave me a lot of shit for being active in the community. So I kinda took a step back; for the sake of our relationship. Now that we are over, I decided it’s time to jump back in! I love kinky friends, especially those of the AB/DL variety. I think everyone likes friends who they don’t have to hide from. I’ve been reconnecting with old friends, and meeting new ones! So much yay :)

I’ve been toying with the idea of blogging again for a few weeks now. Like I said, I love writing and the idea of an AB/DL themed blog is intriguing for me because it means I don’t have to hide anything from my readers. The thing that has been holding me back, though, is that people think that just because I put myself out there they have the right to criticize me, or harass me. I’ve decided to not let that shit bring me down anymore. If you don’t like me then just don’t read my blog. It’s a pretty simple concept.

So now that that is out of the way, if you don’t know me then… hi! I’m Ally. I’m 20 year old girl who is into ageplay. I don’t really know what else to write about myself so hopefully you will just get to know me throughout the course of this site!

Thanks everyone for reading!

Ciao!

<3 Ally

p.s. here are some pictures. because we all know that I am a camwhore. ;)